Montana n: A state of the northwest United States bordering on Canada. Admitted as the 41st state in 1889. The fourth largest state in the union, it includes vast prairies and numerous majestic mountain ranges.
Syn: Treasure State, Big Sky Country, Last Best Place.
Jones n: slang. An addiction or very deep craving.
Monday, November 21, 2005
I went to spend a weekend with my ex. We are just friends now.
I know the intimacy is over between us but I packed my condoms anyway.
It felt good to spend time with her. We talked, we laughed, we went running together, we watched a movie (chick flick), she taught me how to make sushi, we went to a show and listened to a guitarist. It was easy spending time with her because I already know her well. I had fun.
I had to work very hard to remember that it was no longer okay to grab her for random hugs or caresses, no kisses, no hand holding. We are just friends now.
She made me a bed on an old lumpy futon mattress. I wanted to suggest sharing her bed and staying warm by snuggling but I didn't. The bed got cold and uncomfy during the night and I wanted to go share hers, but I didn't.
In the morning she crawled into bed with me to confirm my complaints of lumpy mattress. She let me snuggle her for about two minutes until she decided she needed breakfast. It was a delicious two minutes.
I spent all our time together in lust but I never once mentioned it. I never once implied anything. I never once put on pressure. I avoided sexual innuendo. The condoms never got used. We are just friends now.
I wonder if she thought the same thoughts or felt the same way?
I'm sorry, that really sucks!!
(eloquent I know, but there just isn't any other way to describe it)
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