Montana n: A state of the northwest United States bordering on Canada. Admitted as the 41st state in 1889. The fourth largest state in the union, it includes vast prairies and numerous majestic mountain ranges.
Syn: Treasure State, Big Sky Country, Last Best Place.
Jones n: slang. An addiction or very deep craving.
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Just friends
"I just want to take a step back is all. I don't want to rush anything."
There was more to it of course. There always is. In the end it is yet another variation on the 'lets just be friends' speech. She did not close the door entirely, but she did still make me feel like damaged goods.
God knows I could use more friends. Especially here. I've been in Montana going on 11 months and she is the only non-work, non-family phone number on my list. Friends are good, yes, but I am not so interested in a girl-who-is-a-friend. I have those all over the country. I have a longtime friend R_ in St. Paul that I can always count on for moral support. There is A_ in California that can always make me laugh. Wonderful S_ back at previous address with whom I have never been at a loss for conversation. Even my ex here in Montana wants to be a girl-who-is-a-friend. How many girls-who-are-friends do I have to collect before I find a girlfriend? Is wanting a blow job once in a while such a bad thing?
What I need from a friend here in Montana is someone who appreciates foods that make you fart. Someone who can help move a couch. Someone who can aim me in the right direction before I spew up that shot of tequila. Someone who can discuss the finer points of heavy girls with big boobs vs. skinny girls with a nice ass. Girls-who-are-friends, while wonderful people, are not so good at these things.
If all I am going to get out of this is a girl-who-is-a-friend then so be it. God knows I need a few friends around here. But dammit, getting a hard on every time you hug your friend is uncomfortable.
There is more Jones in the archives: February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 December 2009 January 2010 May 2014
